this post is for you...

i dunno whether u'll ever read this but if u do thn u shld know that i'm talking about u. its wierd isnt it? after u lose something u finally realize how valuable that something is to u. im not sure bout u. but i feel tht way. do u still remember 12th august 2007 1.28a.m.? i can say honestly that that was my happiest moment of my life. even till now. even through everything that has happened it still is and will forever be one of the best moments of my life. im sorry for making u feel this way. sorry for everything that has happened. its my fault that u feel like this. maybe in ur eyes im no longer the same person i used to be anymore. 8 months and 18 days filled with joy, pain, happiness, sadness, laughter, arguments, sweetness, bitterness. but through everything i never regretted anything. u said in 'the' blog post that i've left u in another world, all alone. i never have and i never will. i'll always be there for u. always have my best interest at heart for you. seems so hard to believe. maybe u'll never ever believe it. i know i broke ur trust u had in me. so i dont blame u if u dont believe me on this. its different now. i look at everything u've done for me and i realize sometimes i took u for granted the things u did for me. the small things. things that showed u cared but i overlook it. u buying strepsils for me when i was sick. the monkey. u staying back in kl just to see me. seeing me off at the airport. im sorry. my fault again. sorry for hurting u. sorry for everything i did. sorry i didnt appreciate some things u did for me. sorry i didnt treat u properly sometimes...sorry sorry sorry..

some of my sweet memories with u:)

though it'll never be the same for us again i jst want u to know that u'll always be my shining star... forever and ever...thank u for everything u did:) take care..